Heaven can’t help me now

It’s one thing to make a bad decision whilst inebriated – be it on alcohol, drugs or emotion (genuine or otherwise). But to make a bad decision fully sober and conscious is quite another. It would be a while before I can look at myself in the mirror without wanting to throw up.


2 thoughts on “Heaven can’t help me now

  1. I have to chime in to tell you that I’ve made all of my worst decisions while totally sober. Some of them have, after the fact, freaked me out and have even made me physically ill.

    (I had a legit one-night stand about two weeks before I met my current boyfriend and it made me sick to think about it for a good long while, even though I’d never hold such a thing against someone else. It was so out of character for me and I learned a lot about by own personal boundaries.)

    In hindsight, they were all learning experiences and they shaped the way I deal with things and the empathy I have for others.

    I don’t know the details of your “mistake,” but I do hope you’ll try to see your questionable choice as part of a human learning curve. Mistakes just mean you are human and you are doing things. ❤

    1. Thanks for sharing your experience, Christina. This was so out of character for me too. I cringe whenever I think about it. I suspect I will for a long time. But I must say that it has opened my eyes. I am now less judgmental. What you wrote about feeling empathy for others because of it – I feel it too. I look at people now and I think, ‘I understand it now.’ I’m not there yet, but I’m on the road to forgiving myself. ❤

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